I hate to cry, I really do.
but lately, I have been crying so much.
what's happening to me?

things that seem so tiny seem tiny because they are far away from you.
but these things are actually gigantic. Cus they are so close to me.
I look at these things and I feel scared.
I feel that these things are going to crush me and break me into many piece.

I don't wanna be broken.

my stubbornness and independence make up my strong front.
and I feed on the smiles you provide me with for the strength to do the things I could never have done.
today, I feel like a parasite .
I feel like I'm not feeding on the smiles you provide,
instead I feed on your smiles.








I don't wanna do this anymore.







I want to sleep.
forever.